this is official .
i like guys with goatee .

no particular reasons why , but i just find them hot and i find goatee as a sign of manhood and maturity (wtf?) and those handful amount of hairs nucleated below their lips would instantly make them look super , super fine .

not too long , neither too short . just the perfect length to make it slightly obvious . OMG HOT . a charming character that would complement just perfect with that goatee plus super sense of fashion . guys with shoes are hot . sneakers or whatever , strictly no slippers . with straight cut or skinny jeans or bermudas (!!!!!) with collar-ed t-shirts or just those normal t-shirts . ultimate hot . i can faint .

i told my girlfriends that i would never (note : never) going to be with a guy around my age again . i'm seventeen this year and having a boyfriend around my age would be a turn off because with reference to my past experiences , having a boyfriend who is still a teenager sucks big time ( unless they could prove to me that they are matured enough then giving a second thought wouldnt be any harm ) . well yeah i'm clearly aware that i'm a teenager myself but having a more older boyfriend means a higher level of maturity . agree ?

plus , my mum have been manipulating me and ask me to marry a guy around the age of 30 when i'm ready to get married . MARRIED . hahahaha . i'm seventeen and she's already talking about being married and being pregnant and all that shit . she told me to get married by 24 . yaaaaaaaaaa right TWENTY FOUR . haha .

alright boys aside , iqah and myself went to aisyah's place because she's having some kenduri (whatever it means in english) to thank god for her father's recovery . we came late at about five and we missed the doa doa (whatever it means in english again) and i felt guilty because it looks like we just came for the food which i would have to admit it tasted really scrumptious . thank you aisyah's mum .

i was having a major problem because i have no idea what to wear and i actually took a good 45 minutes infront of the wardrobe trying out clothes . initial plan was to wear the baju kurung (which would make my life more easier so that i wouldnt have to choose clothes) but more pressure was added since iqah said she's wearing a long skirt -.-

and i was having a bad face and hair day . my make up looks fucking cakey although i didn't use much foundation and my hair ? it needs some layering to be done . MAJOR layering . after o's , after o's .


me (left) and aisyah (right)
we dressed so decently on that day . hahaha

okay i actually wanted to use a head scarf too -.- shut up

iqah even said something like "nak pakai tudung ? kan lagi ayu..lagi manis..."

after the feast , most of her relatives went back home and only a handful of us was still hanging around her house . can you belive it that all of the boys in the picture are 21 years old and older ? haha and one of them has a goatee . aisyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah , iqaaaaaaaaaaaaah... hahaha





i have no idea why it turned out blur .
some are missing .

after the boys prayed , we played this game called "catch the panda" . it is so fun and we played it from 7 plus till 11pm . it's pretty hard to explain the game but i swear you'll have loads of fun once youre in it :)

so said goodbyes and headed back home :)
they're great bunch of people .

anyway , i think i suck . really .

i have a weakness that couldnt be overcome in any possible way .

i tend to fall for someone so easily . VERY EASILY . i suck when it comes to controlling my emotions . i could fall so deep and so fast that it hurts so much . i know the previous sentence makes no sense at all but in actual fact , it does , in a way or another . and i have no idea how to elaborate on it . i swear i have been trying to prevent myself from being in such situations but urgh .

crosses and circles ,
farah

p/s oh my god why must you be so cute ? i can die