A little note to nobody

2:27 AM

there's several things that i need to let out off my chest but i just can't . i can't because i just can't . and even if i do , it would definately not do me any good so what's the point . on a more serious note , i think i am cursed for the rest of my life . i have been feeling this way since months ago . i am not paranoid . maybe just a little bit . but i am very positive that i am cursed . i am frustrated and infuriated . i'm antogonized and i'm fuming right now . i'm enraged and turbulent . i am far from being happy . i can never be happy . okay , maybe i can . but just not for now . it is a complication that no words would be able to interpret , elaborate or dilate . that aside , why do i always have questions that would be left unanswered ? i need answers but questions keep on pilling up . i need answers for fuck's sake . i need answers to my every little questions , to my every little doubts . i have too many whys rather than it is because . i want to read minds . i need to read minds of humans . i need to read my own mind .

that aside , i feel so hurt . i thought you knew the do's and the don'ts , but whatever happened now ? you know it sucks real bad but you didnt even give a thought about it . once is okay . twice is toleratable . thrice sucks . more than that , you should really play in traffic . i am just so .. angry . and dissapointed . you always thought it is OKAY but it never was . i seriously need to get it out of my chest and type everything out in detail but I JUST CANT ! i know that men invented something called papers and pens . and i know it is possible to note down my thoughts and feelings using a pen on a paper . i know i can do that but i wont . i wont because i know i would feel even more irritated if i were to do so . i would feel this feeling of anger and frustration . the urge to write faster and faster . to write more and more in detail . but i can't . my hand hurts . my heart hurts . my head hurts . and i would stop . i would stop from lengthening my sentences . i would stop far from a fullstop . i would be angry at myself . i would be angry for not being able to let everything out although i already wrote half of everything that i feel .

sorry , i have issues .

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