A little note to nobody

4:39 AM

editted .

time : 12.53pm
song : cry - mandy moore

HOLY FUCK ! APPROXIMATELY AN HOUR MORE TO RESULTS .
i woke up at 12.15pm today and approached my mum to seek for some comfort since i was so scared it feels like i can't breathe . but the first thing she said when she saw me walking was

"hahahaha it's 12.15 now . results soon !"

wow thanks you made me feel ALOT more better . anyhoos , she's following me later to school to get my results and i told her that if she see me shouting and jumping up and down when i get hold of my results , then there's nothing for her to worry about . if i were to sit down and cry the moment i get my results , then there's seriously something for her to get all dissapointed in me .

many people promised to call me after 2pm to hear the news . i'm scared . i'm seriously terrified . i think i'm going to cry later in the hall . i know i'm going to cry later .. i knew it .. i'll hope it'll be tears of joy . my heart is beating so fucking fast right now it could fall out from my body any moment . i can't breathe .. well i mean i can , but .. urgh whatever . no time for explaination now because IT'S 1.04PM NOW I NEED TO BATHE AND GET READY FOR THE NIGHTMARE .... OH FUCK .

till then , everybody please anticipate for my next entry for i would tell you guys about THE results . oh holy shit . the next time i blog i would already know my results !! eeee scary or what

crosses and circles ,
farah

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time : 4.41am
song : i hate this part right here - pussycatdolls

i hate the feeling i'm feeling now and i'm going to hate it more later . results would be out in less than 10 hours and the thought of it just send chills to my spines . i have a feeling i've performed badly and i'm not going to make it . but in the other hand , i've tried my best . i sorta made myself mentally prepared for whatever results i'm going to receive later . if i did good , then , alhamdullilah syukur , this is the award i've gained for working so hard . if i did otherwise , i would only have myself to blame . i would be more than happy if i were to get 20 points or below . i don't expect much though . i talked to mimin on the phone from midnight till four in the morning just now and he was trying to calm me down because i think i over-reacted about the whole o-levels-results thingy . haha . gotta put down the phone because he's working later and now i'm left all alone in this cruel world . gonna wait for subuh and i'm going to perform my prayers . yes , i do pray . not only in times like this okay .

crosses and circles ,
farah

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