i'm home on a saturday . i'm so not cool :(
lubna asked me out to town today but i didn't tag along . sorry =( had a mugging session with nazree under my block instead . prelims this monday . i have / need / must get and be prepared .

anyway, chatted with hafiz ealier and he said something like
"finding for The One is like begging for dissapointment"
(konon deep la tu. haha)

to think it over , i would have to totally agree with him . you keep on finding , searching , waiting . . but he never appeared . you kept on wishing and hoping but he never came . when ? how ? why ? where ? what ? who ? i have yet to find the answers to these questions . soon i hope . or maybe never . you'd never know . i'd never know . we'd never know . .

even if it's soon , i don't even think i'm ready yet .

and even if you think youve got The One , do you think you can have the same trust , the same passionate love , the TLC for each other in the long run even after years and years of relationship with the same individual ? i wonder how my parents could hang on with each other for such a long time .. they're such an inspiration

i've been in a real relationship only once and it lasted for 3 years . but what's so real about it since it's all over ?

i used to say i would love you forever very often to my ex . but look , forever never came . it ended sooner than i thought .

and why should i bother finding The One when The One don't even bother to find me ? whoever he is , he might be flirtatious , swinging around and flinging around . . so why should i even bother trying my best to find The One relationships after relationships when i know it all won't work out at this range of age ?

pointless , if you'd ask me .

even if you're in a relationship , it's not like as if you're going to be happy all the time .

but whatever . that won't stop me from dreaming about my dream guy . haha .
so here goes .

MY DREAM GUY LIST year 2008
by : farah the great

1. HE HAVE TO GO FOR FRIDAY PRAYERS !!

2 . he HAS to be older than me . the older the better . but not too old .

3 . he has to be taller than me . since i'm 1.64 , he has to be approximately around 1.75 - 1.8 so i'd feel protected when he hugs me while waiting for the traffic light .

4. must not be over weight .

5. he has to have muscles . especially arm muscles . i have fetish for big arm muscles

6. he has to have a nice body . 6 pacs (sp?) , love handles etc etc

7. nice toenails . no chipped and dry toenails please =)

8. nice fingernails

9. he has to smell nice . i love guys who use hugo boss or lacoste perfume .

10. he has to wear shoes with socks . i hate guys who wear slippers

11. he has to have leg hair . not too thick not too little . in between would be perfect .

12. very hygenic . i'm very particular about this . hey , i even observe guy's ear hole okay . HAHAHA . yes disgustingly true . i like clean guys . turn ons ! (especially those who brings tissue around )

13. he has to have at least 3 pairs of sneakers . i have fetish for guys who wear sneakers with bermudas and tuck-ed in collar t shirt ! very smart =)

14. thick wallet (i'm being very honest over here)

15. nice hair . i like guys who would be willing to take the time to set his hair up .

16. fashionable

17. good family background .

18. no tattoos . but piercings are hot =)

19. he has to have the killer smile !

20. must sing along with me on the phone because i sing alot . although i'm clearly aware that my voice sucks . but oh well , i love to have fun conversations on the phone

21. he has to know how to make me smile when i'm sad

22. he has to know how to kiss well . but i would prefer if he has never kissed before . i love guys with virgin lips .. so pure .. so tempting . HAHA WTH !!

23. he has to have that huggable arms . hopefully he never hugged any other girl before or i'll feel i have a 2nd hand arm around me ..

24. he has to love me .. and only me =)

25. most importantly , he has to speak good english . and obviously has to have the brains .

there's more to come . my expectations are high , for your information .

26. must not have any ex girlfriend .. well this is optional ..

anyway , manymanymanymany thankyous to sheikh for chatting with me the whole time since i'm really very bored .

you're nice afterall . but of course not in the long run ..

okay kidding ! haha .

he's really nice la =)

xoxo!