A little note to nobody

9:38 PM

i'm so bored i could practically stab myself in the heart , give it a little twist , and enjoy some favourable time in heaven .

slacked under the block with iqah about an hour ago just to catch things up . friends are the most effective antidote for boredom . literally . our conversation revolved around the same preceding and the upmost dilapidated topic called BOYS . nothing beats bitching about the sophisticated creature . the irony , how pathetic .

ever wondered how honeyed-coated words with intentional lies filled with pretends could possibly lift you up high , and crash you down like a broken glass with just a blink of an eye ? wondered how effective those words are that it could possibly make you belive every single word and for once convinced yourself that the ultimate search for The One has finally come to a "successful" end ?

in the first place , it shouldnt even be said if it wasnt meant to or if you don't possibly mean it . wouldnt it lead to high hopes for the receiver ? havent you even give a thought about it ? havent you even try to visualize and apprehend what would they feel when they realise that it was all pure , plain , lie at the end of it all ? haven't you ? i don't think anyone have the will to endure all the pain aimed intentionally at them all at once .

maybe it was done out of amusement . but do you think it goes the same for the other individual , who , in this case , felt that everything was so perfect , before you revealed that those words was nothing but lies ? where's justic ? where's the heart ? where does all the feelings go ? maybe you wanted to feel the satisfaction of being capable of witnessing teardrops right before your eyes . maybe you think that that was what love is all about . but why do you have to be selfish and egocentric and make others think the same like you do ? why do you have to make love sound like it is just a piece of trash ?

God is always fair . nothing beats the belief of an individual towards karma . what goes around would , sooner or later , definately , comes around . nothing , in this case , is much sweeter than retribution . nothing is as winsome to being able to say
" Right on your face ! " when karma finally found its way to the bad-ass .

awesome , i'd say .

just some random thoughts . not aimed at anyone . honest .

oh and happy 1 month anniversary to haidarnurwani binte abdul rahman and kailani bin i-have-no-idea-what .
the sweetest couple i've came across (: last long cause i know both of you can . i see potential . haha . kailani you better take good care of her or i'll kick your ass .

xoxo

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