A little note to nobody

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the amount of unread messages in my email inbox .
i can die . lazy to delete u know .

it feels great to have to whole house by yourself .
i'm alone at home since morning . parents out and will only be back home tomorrow . my brother's sleeping over at my other brother's house at sengkang . and i'm bored . home alone on a saturday . great .

i just had a mouthful of nuggets (!!) and nothing beats inhaling few sticks of nicotine freely for a dessert and blasting 50 cent's and akon's track . anything but lil wayne . that little bustard . im still irritated for the fact that he look like that .

had my maths paper yesterday at 8am . lubna and aisyah wanted extra last minute revision ( i had to be their tutor . hahaha ! ) and they came around my house around 5 in the morning ! but it was all worth it cause what we studied came out . alhamdullilah .

im so bored . i can't stay home alone for the night ! i'm scared ... shut up . i wanna go to my brother's house at sengkang but i don't know how to get there . gonna call my sis in law to pick me up later . i'll sleepover there and bring some books for revision .

guys who are attached are way way waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay flirtatious than those who are single . another reason for me to stay single . i've been single for like .. almost 7 months next month . was talking to my mum about this (she's super open and sportaneous) and i told her how much i hate guys . i don't know , i have no interest for them at all now . i find them super irritating . must be the side effects of my past experiences . tsk . i told her i don't wanna get married . i wanna stay single and happy with a good career and migrate to melbourne and bring her and my dad there to live with me . i've big dreams , shut up . i complained to her a WHOLE lot about guys and all she said was - not all boys are the same and we would need them at times (she's not siding me for the very first time !! ) how cliche . but how come all the guys i know are the same ? somebody please explain this for me . and she even said guys that are of my age only want all the girls around them to have fun with . but when they're mature enough and are all ready to get married , they would only pick a well-mannered LADY . and then i said , if all they ever want is to have fun , then why bother being in a relationship now when you know the one you're getting married to wouldnt be the one you're with now . waste of time right . being in love now would only gain you the EXPERIENCES to be used as a lesson for building up a perfect relationship with your future soulmate . nothing more . okay maybe you'd feel love for that very moment but he/she wouldnt stay for long . after breaking up , comes the next one .. and the other ..and next..and next next next until you find THE one . but how many 'next' do i need until i find the one ? and when you're on the mission of trying to find THE one , people will start calling you a flirt/bitch/slut for being with various guys one after another . see the irony of it all ?

i need to buy a new pack of ciggs .

crosses and circles ,
farah

i want to get into a poly =( lets all kill uncle cambridge for making our life miserable .

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