A little note to nobody

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i dedicated about two hours of my life watching ayat-ayat cinta yesterday at youtube for the very first time . that aside , i was very infuriated with the movie line . it left me confused and really agitated indeed . there was a part where the male lead actor named fahri married another woman named maria although he was already married to aisya . religion reasons aside , i'm totally agaisnt the fact that fahri actually commited himself in marrying two ladies .

there's another indonesian drama series called isteri untuk suami ku ( or smth like that) currently airing on suria that demonstrates an exact duplicate (well , almost) of the male-female relationship in the movie ayat-ayat cinta . the male actor in this drama series was FORCED by his wife to marry another woman just because his current wife could not give birth due to several reasons . and i am even MORE agitated for the fact that he DID marry that other lady .

can someone explain to me why WE ladies are giving men all the privilages in the world ? WHY ! i strictly do not understand why the fuck do they allow the man of their life to marry another woman right infront of their eyes . oh come on , don't tell me you can bear looking at your own husband making out with another lady right infront of you and PRETEND to be okay about it . fuck you .

looking at another aspect, we ladies are admitting defeat . what do i mean by that ? what i meant is , we are actually ALLOWING ourself to get HURT . what's the point of making yourself HURT ? don't tell me bullshit like : IT'S THE SACRIFICES YOU HAVE TO MAKE IN A RELATIONSHIP .

you tell me that , i'd ask you to play in traffic .

with that being said , i do not think movies or drama series that demonstrates such cruelity to women should be aired in any form of media because it would futhur manipulate the minds of humans thus practising human discriminations that lead to various unintended consequences that would in turn affect ME ! ME ME ME ME ME ! i wouldnt want to be unfairly treated in this world by MEN and have everyone else to think that it is OKAY to be hurt because "IT IS THE SACRIFICES I HAVE TO DO IN A RELATIONSHIP" ! hello ?? can somebody at least hear my pain ???!!!!

i don't know about other girls , but if it were me you're asking about , i would strictly be against the idea of my bf/husband marrying another lady . no , never , tak boleh . being a bitch that i am , i'd crush his balls into pieces if he ever mention about other girls infront of me . i am THAT selfish and i'm a real mean beast when it comes to being jealous .

that aside , talked to shino yesterday . the topic was relationships and what we miss most in a relationship . he said he miss the endless arguements . HAHA . me too . i wouldnt deny that i miss being in a relationship too myself . i've been single for almost 8 months and i would admit , that without any doubt , i was having the time of my life for the first few months . but as time goes on , i'm feeling really lonely now . HAHAHAHA , what a term to describe myself . but yes , damn it , im feeling so lonely . put aside the presence of my family , bestfriends and friends , there's practically no one else . except for talking on the phone at night with azip , azri , shino , or whoever that happen to call me that night , there's really nothing else to do .

i have no other choice but to resort to whining by blogging , like now for instance , to fill my time .
HAHAHA
oh god what a long blog entry .

crosses and circles,
farah .

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