just a little bit caught in the middle

1:42 AM

i've came to a point where insecurities engulfed me like a health-hazard disease with no medications to be prescribed . a deleterious and fatal disease that has no remedy thus leaving me with no other options but to adapt to whatever undesirable , but hypothetical outcomes . to isolate might be an option but i'd beg and seek for other alternatives because i know i could come up with something more prominent that comes along with several other worth and benefits , but obviously only with a mentally stabled mind being at the right state , and staying at least sane to start it off . with so many things that are being played over again continuously in my mind like an old spoilt radio was not being much of a help because nothing was clear or even decent enough to be conveyed or to be thought through . everything's jumbled up like a jigsaw puzzle with pieces i'm not even sure of .

needless to say , i couldnt come up with a reason as to why i typed the paragraph above for i am not even close to the state of being pessimistic or crestfallen but maybe this is just what you'd get after drowning yourself and settling your soul with too much sappy songs . maybe not for you , but it is for me at least . i just think too much at times . this dosen't even make sense if you were to consider . . but maybe , just maybe , what i just typed above is afterall true , in a way or another -- ways that are too complicated for you to understand with the addition of fundamental intricacy .

you'd never know what lies in between those lines , do you ?

i'm just weird at times .

crosses and circles ,
farah

just a little bit caught in the middle

1:42 AM

1:42 AM