A little note to nobody

11:16 AM

I was in the bus on the way home from school when i start to think about the purpose of living a life and of course - myself .

For close to almost eighteen years of living this life, i have yet to find the accurate purpose of being brought here to where i am now. I know it is totally wrong for me to even have any thoughts regarding these kinda stuff that sorta associate with religion beliefs but i can't help but wonder why.

I wonder why are we earning so much and working our ass off just to know that wealth and title would be left behind when we die ?

I wonder why do we even bother trying ( or sometimes struggling ) in life just to be happy when we know that we can't be happy forever .

Life is like a circle. Today you're at the top, and before you know it you're gonna hit rock bottom.
I've hit rock bottom so many times I could write you a guide to getting there.

So now tell me what's the purpose of being happy when you know , YOU KNOW , that you're going to be devastated one day. And after you're done weeping and such, you're back on track and you're back being happy. And then the cycle continues. You'll have to repeat the cycle for at least two million times before you die.

EXHAUSTING ISN'T IT ?

I wonder why do we try to make everything perfect in life when we positively know that it won't be, and it can't be perfect in any possible way. Even if we were to achieve something close to perfect, it wouldn't stay that way forever.

Things come and go. And life isn't really wonderful.

Don't get me wrong. I am not deprived of love or trying to sound suicidal. I feel loved by my family, friends, and of course Megat.

But why? Why are we trying so hard?

Why are we all trying to stay out of trouble when you know you're only going to live once? Not being in trouble is an exciting activity that you're going to regret not doing.

Why do some of us try to bring ourselves as far as possible from cigarettes, drugs or alcohol when you know even if you consume them or not, or how bad it's going to damage your internal organs, you're going to die one day anyway.

It's like -- whats the purpose of going jogging everyday when you know you're going to gain those kilos back?

Why can't all us humans be brought into this world without having to face such urbanized environment and stop Money (the monster of all evils) from manipulating the minds of humans.

Why?

Wouldn't it be happier that way? But like what i've mentioned, nothing and no one would stay peaceful and happy forever. So even if that were to happen, i'd still have questions rolling in.

Get what I mean?
Tell me I'm right.

Am i just thinking too much, or is everyone else stupid enough to not think about what i've just mentioned?

I see no purpose of doing anything now. What could i actually gain from it anyway? Sound really pathetic but yea it's true.

Crosses and circles,
Farah

11:16 AM

11:16 AM