Love.

4:08 AM

Time check : 4.08am

I'm over at lubna's place right now. Saf and lubna are asleep while im just lying down blogging away. Gonna sleep over at her place for 2 nights I think.. afterall I need to make full use of my holidays right ? I think schools are retarded. Torturing us with assignments for like 2.5 months and they're giving us 2 weeks of holidays in return. That is totally inhumane to be honest.

Anyway i have noticed that I would usually update my blog at night. Reason being is that I would only feel at ease and calm when night falls. I need to be surrounded by silence, and that is the time when i could really pour out what i feel inside. But somehow or rather i am held back from exposing my innermost feelings here in my blog because i do not want any misintepretation to occur.

But all that aside, this is my blog afterall, right?

Well sometimes I feel that everyone should take a break from what the community and media have moulded us into, and how being in 2010 has made everything, including our feelings and emotions, change into something that everyone is foreign to.

Back in the olden days, everything was basic. That pretty much includes conversations, understanding people, and even showing basic signs of affections and love. There was no complications, rules or regulations on how people should love, or even how we should be respected. Nothing much is conveyed through verbal conversations because they know that words couldnt beat the sincerity and honesty when you do something, or prove something physically by Actions.

What about now? Even the word Love has a defination for it in the dictionary. So are we supposed to depend on its meaning to convey our love to another? What happened to showing Love, care and affections through Actions?

We could all say that we love one another, it is that simple. But haven't you realise how cliche and boring it would sound like when you speak those three words now ? - I Love You.

Imagine if i told you that i love you BUT without showing any signs of affections to you. Would you still be convinced that I love you ? Or would you feel that it is nothing but a piece of bullshit (Even maybe worst than bullshits) ? Saying those three words would mean nothing if it is not supported by actions - that holds the sincerity and purity of it , which forms the perfect formula that could create a magical feeling , that is even better than love . To which , i could ensure you that not even a word in the dictionary is fit enough to be in that level so high, higher than love.

Have you ever thought why is it that it is very simple for someone to show hatred and grudges towards someone so clearly , demonstrating it well enough for the surrounding to realise ? Why is it that anger and frustrations could be seen so easily without us trying hard ? I am very sure that whenever you guys say that you HATE somebody, you would have really smashed reality and smear it directly on the person face (unfornate enough for him/her)

Even if you were to have sex with somebody, you don't just go to him/her and say "HEY BABE I WANT TO FUCK YOU TONIGHT" but switch on your TV afterwards and watch world cup (bleargh, world cup -.-). Well, maybe some of you would (you retards), but what would usually occur after saying that ? You get a bed, pillows (well maybe) and start fucking each other with all sorts of positions in mind. You SHOW that you want to have sex through ACTIONS. You can't just say that you want to have sex with someone and then tell them that you want to have sex MENTALLY (hahaha doing sex mentally, what the fuck? LOL) or by using some special physic powers right? Of course you have to drink some Redbull (or what have you) to get the ACTION going.

Why couldn't it be the same like how we show Love to another ? If I could, i would have erased that word off from the dictionary, because i do not think that it should be defined by words, because Love itself should be plainly defined through actions. Love itself holds a different experience and meaning to every individual, so it is retarded if all of us on the surface of earth were to flip the pages on the dictionary to find its meaning, because dude, that would make us imbeciles.

I just wish everything was easy like how it used to. What we all need in love is Assurance. We need to be assured that it is real, pure, and not just words that are empty.

We need to learn how to demonstrate and show Love.

Time check : 5am
I took an hour to type this entry, it's time to sleep.
Goodnight.

Crosses and circles,

farah

Love.

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