Be strong

Unfortunately for me, I've pasts that I dwell upon too much, probably causing me to think too much of downright irrelevant and unnecessary stuffs. Wouldn't deny that it affected me in every angle of my everyday-life. It altered the way I think, the way I look at stuffs and basically my perception towards everything.

Somehow paranoia conquered and multiplied like an uncontrollable virus within me that was manipulating my own self. It was really frustrating to be fully aware that my life is slowly being taken control over by my overwhelming emotions, but not even a cell within me was able to be the dominant one to keep my mind straight. Mind over matter, I told myself. But I wasn't strong enough to fight that feeling. I found two weakness within me. One, my emotions. Two, not having the ability to conquer my own emotions.