tonight
12:50 AM
It's been months since my last entry - dated 12th July- and things has been the same ever since, if not, better. Finally done with my school's attachment and currently surviving my final semester in poly.. thank god! but on the flip side, i fear the thought of graduating. where am i suppose to go? what am i suppose to do? continue schooling and get a degree or start working my ass off? either way both sucks so....hmm. we'll see what the future holds.
but for now what matters most is knowing that i've special people around me that cares. my family, my best friends and of course the man in shining armor - my boyfriend.
things has been going great for both of us. a few hiccups here and there but then again a relationship is not a relationship without arguements. we've our differences but we manage to work things out. gotta give and take a little sometimes and the main essence to it all is being understanding. number 1 principle : no expectations = no disappointments. though on most occasions even when i do have expectations (it's a brutal lie if i said i didn't have any), he'll always exceed my expectations. like a pro. hahaha. chivalry does exist and it exist in him. anyways, it's not always rainbows and butterflies, but it's compromise that moves us along, right? maroon 5 would agree to that.
he once told me that he can't promise that he will never make me cry, or sad for that matter. because truth to be told, feeling sad and disappointed in a relationship is extremely inevitable. but for all i know now, i believe that what we have gone through thus far, is worth it. after all, we need to learn how to visualize the whole piece. if you only focus on the thread given to you, you lose sight of what it can become.
this entry ain't supposed to be all corny and shit like that if you must know. honestly. but at times like this (it's 1.26 in the morning by the way) i'd like to take a step back and evaluate ... my life. how blessed i am to have him around me. sometimes i believe i might have taken things for granted. but what made him special to me is the fact that he stayed, he stayed around even if i fucked things up, real bad. picked me up and made me a better person.. right from day one.
i couldn't ask for more. but all i need now, and for as far as this takes us, is to have him around in my life. to guide me and to believe in me. because this relationship is more than just being in love with each other... something that i've never had before. he is someone whom i know i could depend on, and would readily be there for me. he doesn't have to tell me he loves me all the time because his actions proves it all. never once did his efforts subside. he has dedicated a lot for this and i'm grateful for all that was done. meeting me although he's damn shagged from work and barely had 3 hours of sleep the night before and never once complained about it, bringing me out to dates and dine in at nice places just to let me have an awesome meal, listening to my wants and needs and always do his best to make it come true.. though i do feel that i'm not deserving enough for all of that.. but i am really giving my best for this relationship and i would never wanna lose him.. he's an amazing man :')









the last few pictures were taken when i joined his family for his family dinner at sakura international buffet in conjunction with his mother's birthday, after which we went to airport to walk around. his family is lovely :)
it feels good blogging after some time.
crosses and circles,
farah